Today was a tornado. Trent is really feeling the effects of the chemo. His whole body hurts. He is super tired. He can't keep anything down. The whole world spins in his head. He can't calm his thoughts. It is awful. He feels so bad that he is inconveniencing everyone. Typical Trent. Then the next minute he is irritated that the whole world hasn't stopped because he has cancer. Those drugs are really playing with his minds because that is NOT Trent.
He is getting sooooo tired of being in the hospital. So I jumped up early this morning and opened all the blinds to let in a bunch of sunshine. But pretty soon we got a severe thunderstorm warning and had to close them again. Then right about dinner time there were tornado warnings all over southeast Nebraska. We watched the progress on TV and I opened the blinds so we could see what was going on outside. It was eerie and green and so cool. Unfortunately that is just how Trent was feeling-minus the cool part. He took a turn for the worse and ended up having a really rough evening.
We did have a really neat experience this afternoon. I was feeling emotionally exhausted and Trent was too. We had a good cry together and expressed some fears, sadness, and the wish that everything would hurry up and fall into place. Then right in the middle of that we got a phone call from the Huntsman Cancer Institute in Utah. We finally have the ball rolling to get there so we can be closer to family. What a blessing that was! Our tears became those of happiness and relief and the knowledge that our Heavenly Father hears us and knows us so well!
Hopefully we will be going home tomorrow to our nice soft bed and no IV poles. It will be nice to have the kids with us for a couple of days before they head off to Utah. Then the next tornado will begin...getting Trent there too.