Looking Up

Today was spent on the couch and in the hospital, nothing terribly exciting but yet one more moment to savor before the ugly stuff, (Chemo) starts. I'm ready, I guess. There's an uneasiness about the reports we're getting from the Oncologists because of what we're up against, notwithstanding the news is more complicated with each passing day but I'm still encouraged. I was resting with Mallory earlier. She was propping my head up with hers and I was whispering to Heavenly Father about helping me get through the pain. It's amazing how something so indescribably small can bring you to tears. I've never before had an experience quite as jarring as this. Every time I asked for support her reply was that Heavenly Father was already helping. No matter how much I winced at the problem she repeated over and over again that He was. I'm so thankful for her calming demeanor and assurance that help was already there. I needed that reminder because I'm too weak and the mere fact that someone else was certain that I would be cared for in this, my darkest hour was humbling and quite profound. she must get that from her Mom, because Holly has said from the onset of this diagnosis that she was confident the outcome would be okay, not easy, not the quick fix but okay. Holly is my rock!