We are still waiting for the new medicine to arrive. Trent is feeling more pain, especially in his right chest and that has thrown him for a loop. He is anxious, irritable, and overall feeling lousy. I don't know exactly what to do for him. He keeps asking me 'why' and I have no answer. I wish I could say, "Oh it's because....(blah, blah, blah) but it is going to be fine because...(blah, blah, blah). It is part of the plan. But what is the plan? I wish I knew! I am very good at following directions to obtain the desired end result. I am sure I am one of the few people on earth that actually reads the instructions for everything. But we are so in the dark right now. Just lay out the whole plan so we can see where the twists and turns are, how long we will be in perilous circumstances, and how it will all turn out. I can follow that.
I keep telling Trent that we are learning patience. He doesn't like to hear that and I don't like it either. But maybe the bigger lesson right now is learning to trust. When this dawned on me the first thing I thought of was this:
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6
But, reading on I found this in verses 11-12, "My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of his correction: For whom the Lord loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth."
It's good to know we are loved. :)