Is this week over yet? Dang, six days to go. It's gonna be a long one! We are here at the Huntsman for Round 6 and a blood transfusion. Trent's bone marrow is just not bouncing back the way it did the first few rounds. So along with chemo he gets a juicy little elixir of blood. Kind of sickening to watch it go in-not out. Trent has been super tired lately but other than that, okay. We are gearing up for another go around with the Taxotere next week. The docs have given us some pointers and new meds to combat the terrible pain that Trent endured last time. They said it doesn't usually hit people quite that hard. Leave it to Trent to be the odd man out. It seems like if there is a weird side effect or symptom, Trent gets it.
We had an eventful weekend in Idaho. Trent even went swimming with us. He said it felt really good to be in the water but was soooooo exhausted afterwards. He attended the Priesthood session of conference with his brothers and dad and had a nice time. I am sure it will take a few days to rest up after his travel--just in time to be knocked down again by chemo. What a cycle! I know Trent is really looking forward to a time when he doesn't feel tired.
Lately I have had a very hard time not imagining the future and what it may hold. Not a pretty picture. I feel almost as if I am betraying Trent or giving up if I let myself wonder if I am making memories or if this will be a memory. But I had a great visit from two friends today who helped me remember that God is mindful of me individually. As we were speaking they both said at different times, "Stay in the present." That is really what I needed to hear and I know that is what the Lord wanted me to hear. I am so grateful for those who allow themselves to be instruments in God's hands.