Last week Megan and Zach attended a Pioneer Trek in Martins Cove in Wyoming. The day they returned was Megan's birthday. She had no idea but while she was gone I organized a party for her and her friends. She was super excited and had a blast!
|Many thanks to Greg and Erin for the outdoor movie!|
With all the love going around I thought I would share some too. The next morning I took Jarom and Zach and went shooting with some friends. I was impressed with their aim! They both shot pretty well. We exploded all sort of pop cans and potatoes. It was so fun! I have now added a 44 magnum to my list of wants. :)
|Mother's Day 2012|
We prepared the same meal that Trent made for us last year. All the kids pitched in and helped get ready to go to Huntsville to the same park and the same picnic table.
I really thought I had conquered Father's Day. It was such a huge success! But of course I got the wind knocked out of me the next day. I thought I was doing well enough to tackle some of the boxes of our belongings that were being stored in the basement. The first thing I found was Trent's student ID card from UNL. Shortly after that I found a letter I had written to him on Father's Day in 2009. That was it. I was done for. I sat on the floor and sobbed and sobbed. Megan and Mallory were both there in a second. Megan gently stroked my hair and Mallory followed her lead. A moment later Mallory slowly tucked herself into my lap and Megan knelt down and threw her arms around my shoulders and let me cry and cry and cry.
It usually takes a while for me to recover from a breakdown like that. The rest of my day was not fabulous. Megan tried hard to make it better for me though. She knows that music heals me and she willingly sang as many songs as I played on the piano. That helped a lot. The next day I had some residual grumpiness going on. Mallory was pestering me for something and I said, "Just to warn you Mallory, I am super grumpy so you are probably not going to get what you want." Right away Megan and Zach were chiming in trying to make me happy. They were laughing and asking what was wrong and why I would waste my time being grumpy. Finally Zach said, "I think this calls for some Happy Jacks! Do a Happy Jack Mom, I am sure it will make you smile!" He was right, it did make me smile. As I left the house for my Relief Society meeting I heard Megan and Zach yelling, "I love you Mom! You are the best mom ever!"
Today is the 10 month mark for us. All in all we are doing well. It seems like an eternity since I have seen Trent yet I am shocked over and over again when I realize he is not physically here with us. You would think that part would have sunk in by now but it is still hard to believe. I am so profoundly aware of all the blessings in my life. I have the most amazing husband and my children are blessed with the best Dad ever! Trent has made such an impact on our lives and we miss him every day. Happy Father's Day Trent...until we see you again...GO HUSKERS!